I want to live a good life.
That's why I make the choices I make. I want to be healthy and happy and good.
I'm a cancer survivor. At 23 I learned a lot about my mortality and the importance of having a life worth living. I think that a life worth living is something different for everyone, but for me it means that on my deathbed, whether in 2 weeks or 60 years, I will have few regrets and many happy memories. I want to be happy. It isn't about what I have. It is about what I do with what I have. I have a sweet husband and an incredible baby girl. I have a house and a car. I have food and clothes. I have this amazing body that can heal and grow and help make life. I want to be healthy. My body carries me around. It lets me feel. I'm in it until I die. I've put it through a lot of abuse, and it still functions. Now, I want to make a conscious effort to give more to my body. More rest, more exercise, better food, more water, more care. AND LESS GARBAGE, LESS STRESS. I want to be good. I want to be kind. I want to treat others with mercy. I don't know what has happened in a person's past and I don't know what their future brings, but I know that in the moments their life intersects with mine, I can treat them well. I can show kindness in return for kindness and mercy in return for unkindness. There is a lot of badness and cruelty and darkness in this world and I don't want to add to it. One of my favorite quotes is from an episode of Doctor Who (Yep, I'm a Whovian and proud of it) The Doctor is comforting Amy after the suicide of their friend Vincent. She is afraid that she and the Doctor didn't make a difference in Vincent's life. The Doctor says "The way I see it, every life is a pile of good things and bad things. . .and we definitely added to his pile of good things." I want to add to the pile of good things in life. I'm not perfect. I make bad choices. The journey of my life is filled with climbing up and sliding back. If I can spend more time climbing and learn from the times I slide, I will have a very good life. -Brenda |
A FEW GOOD THINGS
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